Shuffling Through the Years

So the other day I decided to "spice up" my walk and put my i-pod on shuffle. I always feel ambivalent about doing it too. Either I get a set of some of my favorite songs or ones I really like that I haven't listened to in forever, or a set of songs come on that I haven't listened to in forever, for good reason. But this time, it was an awkward, but nice in a weird way combo of the both.

This shuffle caused me to have a flashback. Some songs came on and the minute I heard it, I was taken back to high school soccer practice, or driving to a horse show with butterflies in my stomach. It was a strange, but wonderful feeling. I was amazed at how well I could remember specific situations, some from over 5 years ago, just from certain songs. I'm sure my parents would like to know why I can remember silly things like that, instead of my abnormal psychology test questions, and I would like to know too.

It is just a strange, somewhat powerful feeling I get when I hear a song about broken hearts, or how nobody understands you when you're just 18, and how for that 3 minutes the song lasts when I first heard it, it fit me completely. It consumed me, and I never thought anything could describe how I felt except for that song. Those songs got me through what was impacting my life at that time. It's funny to think about what's happened since then. How over dramatic some of the songs are, how unnecessary majority of the emotions I had about something were. But at that time, they were real, and important, and that song fit.

Comparing what I listen to now, and how it fits my situations is so different. And I can't wait until the next 5 years come along and I can put my i-pod on shuffle again, and laugh about what I am so whole-heartedly into right now. I realized none of my songs are insignificant, some just have a shorter expiration date in terms of continuing to relate to me than others.